Life is a sailing boat journeying in wide waters.
Over Still and Troubled Waters — I don’t know where in the world did I get that title! I was really on a crisis while I was writing that autobiography. I can only imagine. Though, I still hold to the truth of that title. Life is a journey over still and troubled waters.
At this point, I feel like my journey is in the troubled part. It was a fine Saturday. I finally decided to talk to my boss. All I wanted was to leave the company. I felt I am not happy anymore, I feel bored. I know I have more to offer, I can do more; but with the kind of set up we have, I just can’t.
How can I ever forget August 11, 2007. It was a heart-pounding day. I did not know how to approach my boss and tell him my plans. I am not really good at talking. Many times, my talking failed me.
“Sir, I am already planning to leave the company.” He just laughed at me. He did not asked why. I felt his silence as a sign that I should elaborate.
I wasn’t really expecting that I was able to share my struggles with him. I have almost told him everything. But the reason I wanted to leave was to give balance among all my commitments. I really wanted sometime off with myself, to ponder and plan; and I just can’t do it as long as I am working fulltime. I needed more time for my ministry, for my family, for myself. I wanted to give more time to the aspects of my life that I have set aside because of too much activities.
That was the beginning of the risk. I felt that I have sailed into a stormy weather. I was trying to give comfort to myself, believing that I will not fail.
